Back in the days of high school, I had a fierce crush on this girl. I was young and somewhat (see also: wholly) inexperienced with women, so, despite her glaring flaws as a human, I eagerly jumped through the hoops she tossed about, all under the guise of "let's just be friends." Wishful thinking motivated me to continue the pursuit. My efforts were rewarded with a few kisses here and there.

After two months or so of this horseshit, she started hanging out with another guy. We shall call him Mr. Klinefelter. I objected, of course, but she stated that they too were "just friends". I know the transitive property of friends states that I should have been friends with him as well, but that was not the case.

Klinefelter was an emancipated minor, which meant that he had his own apartment. Klinefelter also had a lot of friends. Thusly, there were many parties at this apartment. And this girl, she liked to party.

Finally, I got fed up of this two-timing "friend" bullshit. I wouldn't be waiting in the wings for her to grace me with her attention. I confronted her and expressed my feelings, but somwhere along the way, things backfied. She ended up losing her virginity to Mr. Klinefelter that very night. Awesome.

I was all busted up about this. The world was a cold, dead place to me -- for about a month, then I found some other girl to chase. I haven't really thought about her since.

Flash forward 10 or so years and she finds me on one of those shitty social networks. I graciously decline her request to be friends, but I peruse her profile. Since we last spoke, she's pushed out two kids, which has destroyed her figure (probably added on 100+ lbs). She's got a few (lame) tattoos and a lot of (really lame) piercings. She still lives in the same (shitty) town. She listens to Korn. She drinks shitty beer. Her finance is a welder (no joke) who competes in what looks to be really-really-really low budget motocross competitions.

As a true American hero once said: some of God's greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.

Fuck the Internet

eric

Sunday 22 February 2009 at 7:13 pm

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I'm going a little crazy right about now. I don't know why, I don't know where this came from... things are good right now. REALLY GOOD.

My roommates may be moving out in the next couple of months. They've been living together for awhile, but always with a roommate, never just the two of them, and I'm sure that it can get wearing on a couple to have to share space with another person constantly. I'm perfectly alright with this. I was actually just telling C a couple weeks ago that I sort of miss living alone. So, here we go, I might get to live alone again.

But the last couple of days, the thought of living alone has brought up all those memories of when I did live alone a couple years ago, and.... It's like the constant flooding of stuff. Good, bad, all of it. Stuff that is long done and over with, things that have since been fixed and I have moved on from... namely all the things that happened with C. The whole secret little affair we carried on, the really good times, and then those really bad times, when it all fell apart... And all that stupid hurt and all those stupid tears and all the long, drawn-out conversations we had which never resulted in anything but more crying....

We're fine now. It's been six great months, with none of the stuff that were problematic before. Six great months of us being together, growing, communicating, making sure we're doing things right so we can make this work. I've never been happier, with a relationship or with myself.

But these stupid memories just won't shut off and it's starting to make me crazy.

This sucks.

Arg....

curlingiron

Thursday 19 February 2009 at 7:34 pm

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