I have been feeling it a bit lately. In my last post i talked of steping back and observing my life within the bigger picture. Not taking it too seriously. i have written about this before. But it usually fades, and i forget the feeling. I do take all of the small things in my life seriously. Every little thing, though I would like to not take it too seriously, i don't know if that can happen. I hope it can.
In my plans for europe I have been feeling this wonder a lot. Today at my new (old) room at my dad's house i hung up maps to continue this woner. But i deciced not to stop with just Europe maps. I hung up maps that show history. I hung up consteletion maps. I thought of learning a lot in history class this coming semester. I decided not to limit my focus, and at that moment my wonder. Maybe this wonder is similar to the big picture idea. I allow my ego to shrink down and all that is out there get much larger. i suddenly am not so important. My future or my now are not, because whatever i am pondering is so consuming. So infinate.
Or maybe it is just a well written book.
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