the boy didn't call me tonight. he was supposed to, but then i got a text saying he'd call tomorrow. it's not that i'm super dependant on him or anthing, far from it, but i've found that i sleep better after having talked to him at night. is that pitiful? probably a little. damn. i don't like being pitiful...
i think one of the hardest things ever is finding out something bad about someone whom you really admire, trust, and respect. i know that this person is still my friend and is still the same person, but unfortunately i totally view him in a different light now, and try as i might, i can't shake knowing what i know about him now. it really makes me lose more than a little respect for him, and that makes me sad.
sorry this is all so scattered and random and not making too much sense. things are sort of crazy right now and i'm not sure when they'll settle down again. so long summer... back to being a busy individual.
you all are great. just so you know.
always.....
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