I havent posted in a while. Ian is gone. I will miss you buddy. Eric is gone, we didn't even get to have a departing beer, (I'll send you one...for old times sake). I was planning on posting a few days ago, but could not, because as of now i don't have the internet. I am at the public library now, surounded by the...public. At the time i figured that would be ok because i could wait till my feelings of sadness and stuff had really built up. It has begun. things are different. But not that different. Yesterday at work my friend patric, my irish pat, is moving to virginia in two weeks. I will really miss that guy, I have only kniown him for a few months but he is awsome. I spent part of today feeling sad about him. But now i do not feel very sad. it is overwith. Others will move, but i think i have been building things up too much around here. They are continuing in the same direction thus far. Me Eli Sarah Tallon Zac and Jon can still hang out and there are no real tuff challenges for me now. Maybe this is the real sad part. Ian is in a new city, and will get new friends. I was taliking to pat, gezippies pat and i said how safe ashland is. How it lets me not do the things i don't want to but maybe if i did them i would be happier. I think portland will be very good for you Ian.
I don't really know where this is going. for now i am happy in ashland. But i think my image of living in ashland for a long time is starting to get a few holes in it. I am really happy that I am going to europe. and i look foward to working less and going to school, at leats a little bit. (Eric you are an inspiration to me, because of the way you were looking foward to that lifestyle, of learning, working hard and achieving). And i look foward to cooking more. I will do this a little at work, but they may be phasing me out, oh well. But with more free time i can cook at home. I made a pie last night. It was fun. and my dad wants me to be the cook at home, which is cool with me. Oh and living with my dad should be a test for me. I am doing well so far of not falling back into my old habits of attacking his ego, his persona, and getting into big arguments. But I still do it a bit. We need to learn to let eachother be. We will i think.

So to all of you readers out there, i think it is time. time to move foward. This does not mean out of ashland, but it does mean to not be held back by it. Or by portland or corvalis or san francisco. or whereever.

Hey I love you guys, and i will be seeing you all soon.
I was thinking of camping on friday, or saterday, or sunday, or monday night. Call me up if you want to. because summer is almost over.

I don't know

jonR

Wednesday 08 September 2004 at 2:45 pm

Two comments

camping sounds fun john, you should call me though cause i forgot your new/old house number. coolsweetmeatlockerjestureposerloftreminderflavor.
rock.
bearded jon
Wednesday 08 September 2004 at 2:45 pm
sorry jerry, i knew i was forgeting some people. It is good you, and your special lady, daria are still in town.
Jon R
Wednesday 08 September 2004 at 2:45 pm

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