Hey everyone,
I just thought I'd let you all know that I am not gay. I never was and I never will be. Not that there's anything wrong with it. It's just not my bag, baby (bring back the austin powers references, very hetero).
Now people might be asking me where all this is coming from. They might be saying "Even though there was that time when you got drunk and starting licking the sweaty stinky greasy under carriage of Eric's Big Ole Titties, while he masturbated himself off into a gardenhose, while wispy had his mouth on the other end of that gardenhose and would put all of that beautiful hot stinking diet coke infested jiz in his mouth and spit it on your ass and smear it around with Scooter's ass, there's no reason why we would think you were gay. You are a poon machine. In your day we called you the Grim Reaper cause of all the bitchaz you murdered! We love you Een. Here's a dollar."

Soooo...,.Where was I?......hhhmmm...I dunno....

Happy Halloween everyone
I still havent decided what im going to be for halloween. I was thinking either MacGyver, bloody poop, or maybe, I dont know, GAY! Cuz if there's one thing Im not, it's gay, so it would be a good halloween costume right?
OBTW
It's been exactly one year tomarrow night since the first time I saw and touched and licked my lady's boobies. Do you guys think I should get her a present or something. If so, what? I was thinking my big black juicy aids infested cock in her mouth, but that just the romantic in me.

MUCH LUV
SLEDG

ps. Smoke and Smoke's new album "Love Suffers Long" comes out tuesday, nov. 2nd. Buy it after you vote you stupid bitches! I hope george bush kills ashlee simpson and then himself.
www.smokeandsmokepracticespot.com

Last night was a good case of the sledg of old. My friend ashlei's cousin manages this band called Throwdown(or takedown, I dont remember) that was in town opening up for Children of Bodom, Fear Factory, and Lamb of God. A good old fashioned metal show at the Roseland. So we got put on "the list", and got backstage passes, and everything. After we realized that there was no beer for us back stage, we hit the bar. Throwdown was dudical. Played that HATEBREED style metal, and covered "Roots Bloody Roots" by Sepultera. My girlfriend got in the mosh pit. It was fun to watch her get the shit beat out of her. Just kiddin. Then Children of Bodom came on They were the most dudically rad awesome band Ive ever seen. They were like Iron Maiden, Manowar, Cradle of Filth, and Gangadank put together!!!!!!!!!!!!!
All the guitarists(there were like four of them) were playing flying v's. And they were from finland! I kept yelling "Blood and Guts. Blood and Guts."

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today i talked to some dude in blackbird for like 30 minutes strait, while we were buying shoes. He was a fundamentalist christain, and served in the military for 20 something years. These two things make me want to judge him badly, but he was really cool. we talked about politics, then religion. he talked mostly. it was tough for me to get too many words in. the guy was fifty five and said he rode his bike 100 miles a day sometimes in his retirement.
his words of wisdom. all the ism's are bad. they seek to unify one portion of people, but at the same time make one group of people right and another wrong. communism, socialism, facism, nationalism. he talked of the bad things of religion and seemed like a very open guy. And he read east of eden by jon steinbeck. Do what thou mayest.
he made me think of things i had not thought of before.
And somehow, "team America; world police" reinforced alot of the thoughts about america.
P.S. awesomely radical movie.

today was long. 8 page diversions. cool cover. i'll post the ones that i've made thus far. today, i interviewed Steve Grasse. that man fucking rules. now, i'm off to watch some Bikini Bandits.

i miss that lady. Do you remember her? on many ocassions i remember scaring the shit out of myself, with the feeling of her presence. Me and and Ian at the bar drinking, and then i think searching her out with guns. What fucking nuts. Anyway i think she is very real still. May, or Maybe not a whore, but a lady in her late twenties, and a darkness to her. maybe she was murdered at Lazerbeams?

Well, unrelated to that, i have been looking at a new way to live lately. i cannot fully sum it up now, so i will piece it together. I was thinking that good and bad are really subjective. I took a trip with my mom to the, and for most of the time we were both sad, and negetive. But by the end i was really sad to be leaving her and Katie, her german-shepard. It was a really good sad. I think i was happy to be missing her so much that it hurt to leave.

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Sprint is the worse cell phone company in the world. THEY DO NOT make wireless easy for you. Avoid at all costs.

thanks for that link, jeryl... i refuse to admit how much of my free time that has taken up so far.....

hooray for working for free in the theatre. it's funny: apparently since i'm a part time student it means i don't need an income, so they yoinked my work study and now any and all work i do down there for this show is FREE OF CHARGE!!! goddamn, this sucks ass.....

i remembered to bring my jacket out today. and a scarf. but no gloves yet. i did find those fabulous mittengloves....you know, the gloves that have no fingertips but have the mitten tops that fold over... i love them. i want more of them. i told my mom to find me multiple pairs and get them for me for christmas. see how easy i am to please? mittengloves.... really, i don't want muc more than that out of life right now.

except maybe a paycheck...

away to work i go (for free).


always.....

Ataxia - a problem with muscle coordination that come from brain damage in the cerebellum.

It is also a great band.
John Frusciante, Joe Lally, Josh Klinghoffer
CD: Automatic Writing
Pick it up and do some heroin.

MUCH LUV
SLEDG
PS. I happened to find out what the band name meant today because im doing a school project on the brain. IM learning things!
I also have been fucking fat, 18 year old brace faces, and rubbing there shit on my chest and calling myself chesty!

new APC has leaked. I caught a brief listen of one of the original songs ('passive') on the album eMOTIVe and much to my surprise, it's actually a studio version of 'vacant,' one of the rumoured tapeworm songs. they played the song when i saw them in portland back when mer de noms was just released. neat.

fucking rad.

i have never, ever, nerver been rocked that hard before. the opening bands were questionable and DEP really rocked the shit out of everyone. I am beat up, tired and bruised. I elbowed a guy in the face as he tried to steal my lucky-leather bracelet. punkass.

here are some pictures from the dillinger set. note: i was front and center, i was using my phone's camera and i was getting the shit rocked/ kicked out of me.

also, there is a video for the subtle single. it's beautiful. watch it here.

Sorry for the sheer lack of updates from Eric. After class, work and homework, all i really feel like doing is going into a low-level coma for the rest of the night. my head hurts.

anyway, things have been going pretty decent. I work hard and i party hard. a little too hard sometimes. I have a cold, but that didn't stop me from getting all dressed up and going to a cocktail party. I drank a few too many greyhounds, got a little too saucy. i'm full of regret. not really.

my new nickname is 'sober steve' for some reason. I didn't drink at all this week (unlike my roommates/neighbors [who drink every fucking night]) due to my cold and busy schedule. I don't really care, but when my roomies bust in my room at 5:30am and try to get me to 'hit the beer bong' while chanting 'sober steve,' i get kind of pissed off. oh well, what did i expect, living on the craziest street in corvallis. it's like a vortex of alchohol and craziness. whatev'

school is going pretty good. my classes are all pretty hard, but i'm getting back in the groove pretty quickly. we'll just see how i do on my midterms. yech.

i love you all. remember that.

i'm out of jail everyone. i'm home. in oregon. as a civilian. carmen said it'll probably take me a week or so to get back into civilian mode... i hope it only takes that long. i already woke up quick-fast and in a hurry today thinking i had slept through first formation... damn, i gotta get out of army mode.

i'll write more when i'm more collected. for now, i need to haul my ass to the grove and see what sort of havoc my roommate has wreaked on the house. oh joy.


always.....

I have been doing a bit of thinking, and i don't want to drink the way i do now. I got really drunk the other night with my friend Jason, and with all of the memories of the evning i look back on, this took some delving into my blured mind let me tell you, i see a negetive light. I just don't like the images that i saw. So i want to change me drinking habits. I don't like drinking too much, and i don't like that i need to drink to relax in social setting, so these two things i will work on. I post this information to you guys because for me it makes my wants more solid. So that others will know if i am failing, doing good, or have just disregaurede what what i am feeling now. Already i can feel my want to change fading. Maybe it will disappear, maybe it wont. But two nights ago, i broke down and hit a spot i have never hit before, (truthfully i started crying in the shower, and i still not really sure why) and i said this is not what i want for my life. If i don't listen to myself now, it will take a stronger punch in the gut to wake me up next time. To reach that part of my self.

Well besides all of this stuff that may seem sad, things are good. I am eating some patato soup now, and i put way too much pepper in it, White Pepper, Oh Snap. It burns.

i am busy and sick. i drank too much this weekend. i have too much work to do to be dicking around on the internet.

http://www.rumorsontheinternets.com

DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN
DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN
DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN
DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN
SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF
SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF
SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF
SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF

This weekend went fine. Met the exboyfriend. Although he is a huge dork and kinda a simpleton, i thought he was a nice enough guy. Some of my ladies friends from college came up too and hung out for the weekend. Heard some stories about my girlfriend that i wish i didnt hear and they still are stuck in my head but whatever. I saw Videodrome and it was nuts. any way fuck all the hataz.
DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN, DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN, DILLINGER ESCAPE PLAN
SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF, SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF, SUNSHINE THE WEREWOLF
DEATH TO VIDEODROME, LONG LIVE THE NEW FLESH!

Much Luv
SLEDG

ps. I need money bad!

So yeah nothing is very exciting here. there are some radass shows coming up but not for a while.
I do have the honor of hanging out with my ladies exboyfriend al weekend so that should be fun. I have never met him and he was in seattle for a couple days. After trying to get he to go up and visit him for a couple weeks, he decided to come down and stay at her house. Everyone is making me feel like i should be freaking out and it does kinda bug me butt their relation ship was 5 years ago and they have hardly talked since. I just feel kinda wierd about it. Maybe Im saving my big freak out about it for when I see him pinch her but or something when Ive downed a half a bottle of jack. Id like to say id kick his ass butt hes in the military amd from the pictures ive seen he looks like a big motherfucker.
a big stupid motherfucker.
I need you people to pray i dont make an ass of myself this weekend(but whatever you do dont pray to god!)

A friend of mine and my dad's died today. his name is william and he had been fighting cancer for the past fifteen years. He died of a heartattack. beacuse of all of the drugs he was taking, his circulation was not working. I remember his arm being perpetually swelled up becuase of this. five years ago. or more. He was a lanscaper, and worked his ass off to make ends meat. He could not take time off for his pain. i also remember a time of this mans church shunning him for his marital disputes. It was very fucked up. I lost my dwindling faith in the Johava's Whitness church. Now he is dead. I wish him my best. I know that the burden of his life is now over. I always wondered where he found the strength for life. William has a daughter named whitney. she is 18 years old, lived and worked with him, and i am sure is completly lost in life right now. I Pray for this girl right now. her life will be completly changing. It makes me wonder what in our lives puts us in this place. All the optimism i can find is that she has (and in the past has had) the oppertunity to deal incredible struggle, this can make us stronger. She could do a lot of evolving now. She could become a great person, if she is not already one now. Greater. On the memory of my friend i wish her the best of luck. Godspeed Whitney.

What a whirlwind of a life i lead. insane. for the first time in my life, i truly feel that there aren't enough hours in the day to do everything that i need to do. crazy. my job coupled with my classes are slightly overwhelming, and if i didn't have the occasional 9 beer, homework-is-done celebration, i might just combust. for serious.

my classes, well, they are hard. it's going to be a ton of work just to keep my head above water, yet again. maybe i constantly overestimate the effort needed, but whatever, it always works out in the end.

CS311 - Operating systems I - i love this class. finally some formal instruction on shell scripting, *nix and all the other good, nerdy things i love.
CS321 - Languages and automata - wtf. i don't even know what the hell is going on. seriously, i havn't been this lost since the first time i saw a vagina.
CS361 - Software engineering - buisiness for anti-social computer nerds. lots of reading. fuck
WR327 - technical writing - i feel confident in this class, for some reason, i entertain the notion that i can write.

but, things are good. i'm loving it.

yesterday, my neighbors sat out on their patio with a giant sign that said "you honk, we drink" all damn day. the cars honked, they drank, i laughed.

the ex has been calling me. every 6 months she starts calling me, the cycle starts again and it's as if none of the crap has happened. she's hundreds of miles away this time and i'm closely guarding my heart -- i'm prepared.

i love diet coke. and joni mitchell. and all of you.

Hey this is a special message to Eric, Ian and Wispy.

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Well Mt. Saint Helens blew up about 20 minutes ago, so I think its time for me to look back and reflect on the last year or so of my life, since a hot burny death is immenent(sic). The best way I can thiink of to do this is by looking at my Top 26 most played songs on my iTunes on my computer.
Keep in mind that I mostly listen to music on my cd player so this is just the stuff thats been givin me that big strong morning wood lately. So without further ado, here's the list
Title-Artist-Played Count
1.Mutilated Lips - Ween - 37
2.Book of the Month - Lovage - 32
3.It Could Be Sweet - Portishead - 29
4.Good Fortune - PJ Harvey - 26
5.Smoke and Smoke Against the Machine - Smoke and Smoke - 23

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